雙語散文:讓夢想成長
讓夢想成長
My dream ended when I was born. Although I never knew it then, I just held on to something that would never come to pass. Dreams really do exist. But in the morning when you wake up, they are remembered just as a dream. That is what happened to me.
I always had the dream to dance like a beautiful ballerina twirling around and around and hearing people applaud for me. When I was young, I would twirl around and around in the fields of wildflowers that grew in my backyard.
I thought that if I twirled faster everything would disappear and I would wake up in a new place. Reality woke me up when I heard a voice saying, "I don't know why you bother trying to dance. Ballerinas are pretty, slender little girls. Besides, you don't have the talent to even be a ballerina." I remember how those words paralyzed every feeling in my body. I fell to the ground and wept for hours.
We lived in the country by a nearby lake. I did not like to be at home. When my parents were home, my mother just yelled and criticized because nothing was ever perfect in her life. She dreamed of a different life but she ended up living in the country far away from the city where she believed her dreams would have come true.
I enjoyed hanging out by the water. I would sit there for hours and stare at my reflection. There I was, looking nothing like a pretty ballerina dancer. Reflections don't lie. Once the waves would come, my reflection was gone. Washed away just like my dream to dance.
As I grew older, I began to realize that the reason my dream was even born, was because it was something that was inside of me. The dream I had was never nurtured and cared for, so it slowly died. It's not that I wanted it to die, but I allowed it to die the day I started listening to the words, "You can't do it." When I finally woke up from many years of dreaming, I realized that you can't settle for dancing in the wildflowers, you have to move on to the platform.
我一出生，夢想就結束了，然而當時我卻毫不知曉，仍執著於一些永無實現之日的事情。我的確懷有許多夢想。不過，當早晨醒來之時，所記起的卻只是一場夢境而已。我的經歷就是如此。
我一直夢想着像一個美麗的芭蕾演員一樣跳舞，輕盈地旋來轉去，耳邊是人們的掌聲喝彩。小時候，我常常在自家後院長滿野花的草地上練習芭蕾舞的旋轉動作。
我想要是我轉得再快一點，眼前的一切都會消失，我將會獲得一方新的天地。然而現實喚醒了我，我聽到一個聲音說：“我不明白你爲什麼不厭其煩地嘗試跳舞。跳芭蕾舞的人都長得漂亮、苗條、嬌小可愛。還有，你也沒有跳芭蕾舞的天分。”記得當時那些話讓我的全身都失去了知覺。我癱倒在地上，哭了好幾個小時。
我們家住在鄉下，附近有一個湖。我不喜歡呆在家裏，媽媽總是在家裏大喊大叫着抱怨生活處處不如意。她曾經夢想住在城市裏，只有在那裏她的理想才能實現，而後來卻住在這遠離城市的鄉下，這與她的理想完全兩樣。
我喜歡到水邊呆着，在那，常常一坐就是幾個小時，靜靜地望着水中我的倒影。水中的我哪也不像一個漂亮的芭蕾舞演員，倒影從不撒謊。微波盪過倒影消失了，就像我的跳舞的夢想一樣消失了。
隨着我的成長我開始明白之所以我的夢產生，是因爲那個夢就在我心裏。而我的夢想從未得到過培育和呵護，因此它慢慢地死去了。我並不想讓它死去，但是從我聽到“你辦不到”這種話的那一天，我卻放任了它的死去。最後，當我從多年來的夢想中醒來時，我才明白過來：你不能滿足於在野花叢中跳舞，你必須設法到舞臺上去跳。
