《美食祈禱和戀愛》Chapter 75 (167):你現在很美
I'm all tearful now, but trying not to show it. The depth of my relief—it's hard to explain. It takes even me by surprise. It's like this—it's like I was in a car accident, and my car went over a bridge and sank to the bottom of a river and I'd somehow managed to free myself from the sunken car by swimming through an open window and then I'd been frog-kicking and struggling to swim all the way up to the daylight through the cold, green water and I was almost out of oxygen and the arteries were bursting out of my neck and my cheeks were puffed with my last breath and then—GASP!—I broke through to the surface and took in huge gulps of air. And I survived. That gasp, that breaking through—this is what it feels like when I hear the Indonesian medicine man say, "You came back!" My relief is exactly that big.
現在我淚眼汪汪，卻極力不表現出來。我內心的解脫難以言喻，甚至連我自己也覺得訝異。就好似我出了車禍，車子掉下橋去，沉到河底，我從沉下的車子裏打開窗戶游出來而脫困，而後踢着蛙式，竭力一路通過寒冷綠色的河水遊向天光，我幾乎用光氧氣，動脈爆出脖子，臉頰鼓漲着最後一口氣，而後——猛吸口氣——我穿越水面，吸入大口大口空氣。我活下來了。吸口氣脫困而出——這正是我聽印尼藥師說“你回來了！”時的感覺。我正是如此鬆了一口氣。I can't believe it worked.
我真不敢相信奏效了。"Yes, I came back," I say. "Of course I came back."
“是的，我回來了，”我說，
"I so happy!" he says. We're holding hands and he's wildly excited now. "I do not remember you at first! So long ago we meet! You look different now! So different from two years! Last time, you very sad-looking woman. Now—so happy! Like different person!"
“我當然回來了。”“我真高興！”他說。我們雙手交握，現在他興奮無比。“我一開始記不得你！我們見面是很久以前的事。你現在看起來不一樣！跟兩年前完全不一樣！上次你是模樣悲傷的女人。現在——這麼快樂！脫胎換骨！”The idea of this—the idea of a person looking so different after a mere two years have passed—seems to incite in him a shiver of giggles.
一個人在兩年時間內脫胎換骨這個想法，似乎在他心中興起一陣笑聲。I give up trying to hide my tearfulness and just let it all spill over. "Yes, Ketut. I was very sad before. But life is better now."
我不再隱藏自己的汪汪淚水，讓眼淚傾注而出。“是的，賴爺。從前我很悲傷。但現在過得好多了。”"Last time you in bad divorce. No good." "No good," I confirm.
“上回你經歷很糟的離婚。”“很糟。”我予以認可。"Last time you have too much worry, too much sorrow. Last time, you look like sad old woman. Now you look like young girl. Last time you ugly! Now you pretty!"
“上回你有太多憂愁，太多哀傷。上回你看起來像老女人，現在看起來像年輕姑娘。上回你不好看！現在很美！”
